immature

am so damn immature! ashamed!
exam tmr!
finished one today! did very badly! feeling very sad and worthless!
constant feeling of inadequacy! constant thinking of why can't i be really bright!
clearly measures self-value based on alphabets/numbers!
need to destress before tmr's paper!

need to grow up! was ready to forsake a friendship so easily! am such a late bloomer!
taking too long to realise life lessons!

will become a better person!
will learn to be happy with myself! including shortcomings!
will stop wishing to be smarter/brighter/wittier/braver!
will learn to embrace myself! strengths and weaknesses!
but strengths are hard to find now!
need to work on so many things!
DONE!!!!!!!!!!